imaginary outfit: sun tunnels


It does not sound particularly sublime: four massive concrete pipes, parked on a crusty desert in rural Utah. They sit at the end of miles of scruffy gravel roads, looking from a distance like abandoned infrastructure left to bake in the sun. But I had traveled nearly 2,000 miles to see them. 

Two years ago, I was on the edge of the Great Salt Lake visiting Spiral Jetty, Robert Smithson's much photographed work of land art. It is sited in a sublime landscape. The day I was there, the sky was full of fleecy clouds and the land was dotted with clumps of foam blown off the salty water, a band of toxic pearly pink against the horizon. Between the clouds and the foam and the heat shimmering above the exposed lake bed, I felt like I was walking in the sky. I read later that Spiral Jetty's "impressive size and deliberate shape command the surrounding landscape" but I did not find that at all. When I was there, it felt comparatively puny, a thumbprint smudge on the sublime. 

Driving away, I knew I wanted to come back to see Sun Tunnels, a work of land art created by Nancy Holt, Smithson's partner in art and life. I had stumbled on a New York gallery exhibit of ancillary work she created about it some time ago, and the little flyer from the show had been sitting on a shelf behind my desk for years.  Holt made the Sun Tunnels between 1973 and 1976, positioning four 18 x 9 foot hollow concrete cylinders in a cross formation that precisely frames the rising and setting sun at the summer and winter solstice. Each cylinder is pierced with a constellation of holes–Draco, Perseus, Columba, or Capricorn—allowing for shifting patterns of dappled light to be cast inside. 

This month, I finally made it back to Utah, and after visiting a vanished resort and a bulbous tree of rock, driving across fields of salt where a mirage lake hovered in the middle distance, and wandering through the recreation hall of an air field where pilots were trained to drop the atomic bomb, it was time to go to Sun Tunnels. 

We took the scenic route, which meant rattling down long lines of road edged by salt and sagebrush, phlegmatic cows and a few rusted-out shipping containers. Miles of wire fence scrawled between posts.  We turned, then turned again, and Sun Tunnels came into view, a beige heap on a beige plain (the setting is less immediately spectacular than Spiral Jetty's). As we got closer, we gasped and laughed. Even driving up, Sun Tunnels begin to do their work, framing the landscape into eclipsing circles, waxing and waning to perfect roundness. Reach the end of a cross, where the two tunnels align, and the circles nest like an empyrean diagram: land and sky bound by rings of concrete, light, land, and shadow. 

This parcelling of the view was marvelous and addictive; we walked around and around from place to place, watching the view shift. Mountains, clouds, plains, sky. I was not there at the equinox and so did not witness celestial alignment, but it was a clear day with big clouds, and as they moved across the sun, the light around and inside the tunnels shifted. Patterns of brightness cast by the constellation holes shone and faded. Eventually, I stepped inside the tunnels, overcoming years of ingrained museum conditioning to not touch the art. The air was cooler. The hollows were smooth and streaked with what looked like black tire marks. I had no idea how they got there. 

On the flight home, I read Helen Georgas' 2019 essay about visiting Sun Tunnels. It captured something I had not been able to articulate, turning over why Sun Tunnels had moved me so much when Spiral Jetty had not: 
Holt found the vastness of the desert overwhelming and created a sculpture to help us frame it. This is a form of empathy, even as it’s also an artist’s colonization of place. Indeed, the tunnels are both guides and havens, directing and protecting. ... [T]he tunnels are viewfinders, gently commanding us to pay attention—to the sun shifting over time; to the light spilling through the “star-holes,” spiraling around the tunnel’s interior, across my own body, changing shape, from pointed ellipses (mandorlas) to complete circles and back again; to the mountain ranges, pale violet and then black, muted or in high-relief. ...  We become conscious of our ways of seeing and being. Perspective and perception shifts—am I looking at the mountains or are the mountains looking at me? Borders separating interior and exterior, immediate and distant, self and other, finite and infinite, fusion and transcendence begin to dissolve. Another revelation: Holt completed Sun Tunnels in 1976 but the work cannot really be complete without the presence of the viewer(s). We are both subject and object. In fact, we are the art, 'the field upon which patterns of the universe revolve.'
I can't wait to go back.

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I hope to get back to Sun Tunnels sooner than later, and maybe time my next visit for a sunrise. Some things I'd bring: Hyperlite Stuff Pack 30, possibly crammed with a Honcho Poncho, because desert mornings are chilly / Lenka bars (so good, b/c basically a cookie) / Freaks of Nature sun stick (kept me well-protected on both salt flats and cinder cones) / Vintage Olympus camera  / Yeti 18 oz Rambler with Chug cap (my ride-or-die water bottle) / Windquester ultralight folding camping chair (on the quest for an ultralight camp chair of these that does not cost a small fortune, and this is a strong contender) / Outdoor Research Sunbriolet sun hat (big fan of OR hats) / Anntian unisex sweatshirt in print A layered over a Patagonia Capilene Cool Sun hoody (handy to strip down to as temperatures rise) / Gramicci mini check nylon pants / Quince Maldives polarized sunglasses / Vintage Taxco earrings, a la Spiral Jetty / Vintage silver bracelet, a la Sun Tunnels /   Grödo organic wool socks / Norda 001A trail shoes in Cinder (spotted these on my travels; covetable).

odds and ends / 9.8.2026













Firmin Baes, "The Young Girl and the Cabbage (‘La petite fille au chou’)," ca. 1903, private collection, Antwerp.

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A grasshopper design in Leavers lace. Late 19th or early 20th century. Collection of Anne Swift.

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Yui Suzukey, "Lattice Picnic," 2026.

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Early 20th century three-light chandelier made of lacquered sheet metal featuring thistles and tulips.

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Charlotte Perriand with an unknown man on a summer’s day, date and photographer unknown, from the collection of the Canadian Centre for Architecture, Montreal, via aetherian_upstate.

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He was born in 1948 and grew up in a small Suffolk backwater. This was a world closer to the 19th century than it was to our own dully fractious era. No global hullabaloo of youth culture: impossible to imagine Altamont or Live Aid, Michael Jackson on the Thames, Bono cold calling George Bush mid-gig, Katy Perry in orbit. No personal touchscreen beckoning itchy fingers. Just gazing dreamily into the distance or cycling about aimlessly on long summer afternoons. Boredom and its cloud-drift antidotes. Boredom as something almost erotic.

Ian Penman, "Infinite Wibble." London Review of Books, 9/25/2025.

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Monotony is the most beautiful or the most atrocious thing. The most beautiful if it is a reflection of eternity—the most atrocious if it is the sign of an unvarying perpetuity. It is time surpassed or time sterilized. The circle is the symbol of monotony which is beautiful, the swinging of a pendulum of monotony which is atrocious. ... A squirrel turning in its cage and the rotation of the celestial sphere—extreme misery and extreme grandeur. It is when man sees himself as a squirrel turning round and round in a circular cage that, if he does not lie to himself, he is close to salvation.

Simone Weil, "The Mysticism of Work" from Gravity and Grace.

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In order for work to be meaningful and sustaining, Weil argued, it had to demand thought and attention. This was an insight she arrived at through firsthand experience. During her work on the assembly lines of newly automated factories, she marveled at “this mental void inside me, this absence of thought indispensable to the slaves of a modern machine.” She worried that the “social machine,” the managerial class of bureaucrats and technocrats, was slowly gravitating toward unconsciousness as countless decisions were being outsourced to specialized technical criteria nobody really understood. Modern life was no longer serving human needs; it was serving the ends of the machine, and it was becoming more and more difficult to steer it in a direction of our choosing. In the talks I gave that year, I often quoted a passage from Oppression and Liberty in which she imagines a future civilization where “all human activity…was subjected right down to matters of detail to an altogether mathematical strictness, and that without a single human being understanding anything at all about what he was doing.” It never failed to elicit a sympathetic murmur from the audience.

Meghan O'Gieblyn, "Wishing It So." New York Review, 9/24/2026.

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... [H]e asked if I’d be open to reading some Shakespeare aloud together: specifically, Act I, Scene 7 and Act II, Scene 2 from “Macbeth.” ... “I’m kind of obsessed,” he said. “I go see the same plays over and over and over.” We sat opposite each other at a glass dining table in a midtown hotel suite. ... [H]is performance was serious, decisive, earnest. Afterward, I told him that it was nice to be reminded of the particular, idiosyncratic music of Shakespeare’s lines. He agreed. “It affects you even if you don’t understand the words sometimes,” he said. 

Amanda Petrusich, "Rivers Cuomo Is Piecing It All Together," The New Yorker, 8/30/2026.

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I myself went fell hard for the Eclogues as a University of Michigan undergrad from 1982 to 1984; really, the line A Jove principium; Jovis omnia plena (“The beginning is from Jupiter; all things are full of Jupiter”—but the English just doesn’t cut it) altered me neurologically and impaired my enthusiasm for anything subsequent. Indeed, I became an obscure poet, a translator, a sarcastic cultural historian, and a serial axe-wielding reviewer.

Sarah Ruden, "Criticism, Then." Book Post, June 18, 2026.

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We chew our burritos. Maybe our cells yearn to be free of us, I think, most unscientifically. Maybe they’re exhausted by the constant negotiations in time and space it takes to maintain the form of an eye, a limb, a mind. Lord knows I’m tired too.

Claire L. Evans, "Report from Goleta." Wild Information, 7/12/2026.

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Those constant bearers of meaning
bore me. I want to open wide now
to the absence of concept, understanding,
representation, to the inward flare
of exhilaration. To the gratuitous
revelation of mineral forces.


Forrest Gander, from Mojave Ghost.

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odds and ends / 7.21.2026

 











Still from "Clotheslines," directed by Roberta Cantow, 1982.

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Sawyer Made split-step stool, for Walker Street Market, photographed by Winnie Yang via The Secret Strategist.

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"Ideal Hollow" by Nichola Manning, via drifting lament.

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Shell buttons, via slow roads.

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Detail of "an exquisite, finest muslin early 1800s French hand embroidered shawl," sold by starchedandcrumpled.

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Photo of H.D. and a child on a beach in California, collections of the Beinecke Library.

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Overlapping in a complex network, each line of garments reads as a household census noting: age, family size, and social status. Bed sheets, undergarments, and women’s hosiery on thin strings allude to bodies not present. Starched white shirts dangle neck-down on tiny tightropes stories high above a precipice of filth-black alleys. A warm summer breeze could bring each garment to life with the weightlessness of guardian angels overlooking the city.

Lissa Rivera, "A Fine Line: The Art of the Clothesline," Museum of the City of New York Blog, 8/7/2012.

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[Clotheslines] were useful in many ways besides drying laundry: for running messages and cups of sugar from one apartment to another, or—stretched diagonally down to the ground—for conveying groceries to the elderly infirm or growlers of beer up to the corner saloon. They were characteristic of a life stretched by necessity, out of interiors of apartments as far as possible into the public space beyond.


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She felt contempt for her environment. ‘Women, yech!’ she’d say. ‘Clotheslines and gossip,’ she’d say. She knew there was another world—the world—and sometimes she thought she wanted that world. Bad. She’d stop dead in the middle of a task, staring for long minutes at a time at the sink, the floor, the stove. But where? how? what?

Vivian Gornick, Fierce Attachments. 

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I think the idea of comfort generally, even when you asked me if I’m comfortable, is a rich thing. These are concepts. If you ask somebody how they grew up, they won’t tell you rich. They’ll say, “We were comfortable.” I’d never heard the word growing up. Comfortable? What? We’re not comfortable. Nobody is comfortable! There are roaches in the sink. The snow has come through the window, and I’ve got to put cellophane on it. Nobody is comfortable, and we’re very comfortable being uncomfortable. But the rich are not. And they dictate what is comfortable and what isn’t. They are uncomfortable often.


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"Suffering and enjoyment as sources of knowledge."

at the clothesline




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Jacques Henri Lartigue, "Florette, Piozzo, Juillet 1959." (Other Lartigue clotheslines here.)

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James Tate, "At the Clothesline."

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'let america be america again'

Let America be America again.
Let it be the dream it used to be.
Let it be the pioneer on the plain
Seeking a home where he himself is free.  
(America never was America to me.) 
Let America be the dream the dreamers dreamed—
Let it be that great strong land of love
Where never kings connive nor tyrants scheme
That any man be crushed by one above.  
(It never was America to me.)  
O, let my land be a land where Liberty
Is crowned with no false patriotic wreath,
But opportunity is real, and life is free,
Equality is in the air we breathe.
(There’s never been equality for me,
Nor freedom in this “homeland of the free.”)  
Say, who are you that mumbles in the dark?
And who are you that draws your veil across the stars?
I am the poor white, fooled and pushed apart,
I am the Negro bearing slavery’s scars.
I am the red man driven from the land,
I am the immigrant clutching the hope I seek—
And finding only the same old stupid plan
Of dog eat dog, of mighty crush the weak.  
I am the young man, full of strength and hope,
Tangled in that ancient endless chain
Of profit, power, gain, of grab the land!
Of grab the gold! Of grab the ways of satisfying need!
Of work the men! Of take the pay!
Of owning everything for one’s own greed!  
I am the farmer, bondsman to the soil.
I am the worker sold to the machine.
I am the Negro, servant to you all.
I am the people, humble, hungry, mean—
Hungry yet today despite the dream.
Beaten yet today—O, Pioneers!
I am the man who never got ahead,
The poorest worker bartered through the years.  
Yet I’m the one who dreamt our basic dream
In the Old World while still a serf of kings,
Who dreamt a dream so strong, so brave, so true,
That even yet its mighty daring sings
In every brick and stone, in every furrow turned
That’s made America the land it has become.
O, I’m the man who sailed those early seas
In search of what I meant to be my home—
For I’m the one who left dark Ireland’s shore,
And Poland’s plain, and England’s grassy lea,
And torn from Black Africa’s strand I came
To build a “homeland of the free.”  
The free?  
Who said the free? Not me?
Surely not me? The millions on relief today?
The millions shot down when we strike?
The millions who have nothing for our pay?
For all the dreams we’ve dreamed
And all the songs we’ve sung
And all the hopes we’ve held
And all the flags we’ve hung,
The millions who have nothing for our pay—
Except the dream that’s almost dead today.  
O, let America be America again—
The land that never has been yet—
And yet must be—the land where every man is free.
The land that’s mine—the poor man’s, Indian’s, Negro’s, ME—
Who made America,
Whose sweat and blood, whose faith and pain,
Whose hand at the foundry, whose plow in the rain,
Must bring back our mighty dream again.  
Sure, call me any ugly name you choose—
The steel of freedom does not stain.
From those who live like leeches on the people’s lives,
We must take back our land again,
America!  
O, yes,
I say it plain,
America never was America to me,
And yet I swear this oath—
America will be!  
Out of the rack and ruin of our gangster death,
The rape and rot of graft, and stealth, and lies,
We, the people, must redeem
The land, the mines, the plants, the rivers.
The mountains and the endless plain—
All, all the stretch of these great green states—
And make America again!

Langston Hughes, 1902-1967. 

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Originally posted 7/4/2018, brought to mind thanks to the wonderful people at Terrace Books.

playing with fire







imaginary outfit: postcards from italy




Notes from two weeks in Italy, March 2026:

Venice: A shop crammed with velvet gondolier slippers, tiny glass snails and mushrooms and dachshunds (saw dachshunds everywhere). Old wells around every corner and brass door buzzers that looked like doodled faces. Shops selling turned-wood geometric shapes, convex witches' mirrors, and wool sweaters and skirts of elegant plainness and eye-popping affordability. Fortuny's private library/wonder cabinet, with tiny theatres, cloud projection scrims, and pleated silk gowns. The zine library + fabulously slouchy couches at Fondazione Quarini Stampalia (and the tiny Carlos Scarpa garden with its spiraled water channel). Cornell boxes + dog memorials at Peggy Guggenheim's palazzo. A grocery store in an old, fresco-adorned theater. Vaporettos up and down the canals. Citrus trees.

Salami sandwiches and travel Scrabble. Bumping luggage over cobbles. Extraordinarily tiny cars.

Florence: A medieval abbey turned into a massive public library with a cafe on the top and a sneaky, beautiful view of the candy-striped Duomo; the third-oldest botanical garden in the world, full of charmingly overgrown greenhouses and flowerbeds; a garden of wax flowers, cabinets of shells and butterflies and beautiful rocks at La Specola; pictures made of rock at Opficio delle Pietra Dure; the sacred Ainu sticks in the old anthropological museum and its specimen cases made with old, wavy glass; the hidden garden at Basicila San Spirito; the Medicis' citrus collection at the Boboli Gardens (and oodles of little lizards running around in the sun); pop-up paper fairies and miniature accordian-file books with vintage imags of the city at Eredi Paperone; shimmery Rothkos hung in monk's cells next to Fra Angelico's luminous frescos at San Marco. Todo Modo, a bookstore/publisher/press/cafe. Many epic vintage shops. Ringing a bell for spritzes. Salted cream gelato. A roll of watercolor pencils tied with grosgrain ribbon; hand-glazed espresso cups. Diamond earrings of constellations and Florentine sandals in a small shop stocked with expensive workwear. A miniature train world created by an obsessive Sicilian count.


Horrid food poisoning for Sean. An unplanned extra day in Florence. Dry biscuits on trains; blurry landscapes. Five flights up, up, up for rooftop views in Trastevere.


Rome: Bernini's Daphne, with her toes turning to roots and fingers to translucent leaves; gleaming candied peels and marzipan fruits; fountains of sunken boats; a tiny, wisteria-hung balcony over the Spanish Steps attached to the Keats-Shelly house; galleries of micromosaic butterflies and marble animals at the Vatican museums, a starry door, celestial globes, and a floor of mosaic crows; an old cookie shop in Trastevere with photos of beloved cats on the walls; a shatteringly thin biscuit flavored with fennel. Churches everywhere hung with chandeliers and adorned with skulls and angels (my favorites, I think, were the Basilica of Saint Mary Minerva, Basilica di Santa Maria in Cosmedin, and Basilica of Santa Maria in Trastevere); the rooms of special stones at the Capitoline, plus its stunning views of the Forum and the city. Cats dozing on broken columns in the Largo Argentina. Passionfruit mango gelato, and another gelato that tasted of peaches and wine (went back for seconds of both). Wild cherry and coffee granitas every day, heaped with whipped cream. A street of shops for priestly vestements and a smocked undershirt of pleated, translucent silk. Crossing the Tiber using oldest bridge in the city. Antica Cartotecnica's old postcards and wall of typewriters and leather satchels; also the little notebooks stamped with the Italian words for dreams and thoughts. Everywhere, fabulous bookstores—holes-in-the-wall with foxed paperbacks, and airy fresco-ceilinged compilations of art books and fancy paper goods.


Glimpses of a garden center we did not get to explore from the taxi window. Duty-free Swatches and Adidas at the airport; tiny magnets shaped like bags of pasta, cans of tomatoes, wedges of cheese, and bottles of Aperol.

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